Anxiety. My ugly little "A" word.
I am a person that likes structure and order and predictable. When there are unknowns, it throws me for a loop. I don't sleep well with anxiety and my mind often wonders, usually to the problem I am anxious about.
I had a mild panic attack last night. I am the costume designer for The Music Man musical my daughter is in. I pretty much have two and half weeks to get costumes done and I haven't even started (cue heart palpitations). In my defense I do not have access to the storage where all the costumes are and I wont be able to go until Wednesday. I am hoping and praying that there are the majority of costumes in there and I only have to make a few pieces. I am also still waiting on a final cast list. Agh! Huge source of frustration and struggle right now. Too many unknowns. Come mid-June I will be good again. Last year I outfitted 60 + people in three different costumes for Hairspray in about 3 weeks. Apparently I work best under pressure. I still don't like having to wait on other people to do my job.
I am also struggling with wanting to get up and around these last two days of school. I am ready to just sleep in.
Those are my struggles. I feel like a 'debbie downer' now. So I leave you with something a little more uplifting. My daughter in her dance recital number. She was in a tap routine to a song called Trickle Trickle.
Telling it like it is not Debbie Downer-ish it's just being honest. We all have our "stuff" we'd like to overcome. Heaven know's I do :)
ReplyDeleteSo you're a costume designer? Very interesting!
Thanks Jen!
DeleteOh my gosh, you are such an involved parent! Good for you!
ReplyDeleteThat's a cute picture of your daughter, being on stage scares me so kudos to her too!
I am really involved. I like to know what is happening in my daughter's life so I volunteer a lot. Thanks. She loves to be on stage.
DeleteI cannot believe your daughter is only 13. She is so pretty! And being a costume designer would put me in a panic in a heartbeat. Be sure to show them to us when you are done! And have a great day
ReplyDeleteThanks. I am usually good under pressure. Hopefully that will stay true. I will absolutely show you guys. I hope you have a great day too, Paula.
DeleteThat is such a cute photo of your daughter. If you do what you did last year for Hairspray on a regular basis, I can understand why you're anxious.
ReplyDeleteHOLY CRAP those are some UNBELIEVABLE Deadlines to work around... I'd have a freakin panic attack (mostly because I don't sew!) HAhahaha!
ReplyDeleteI don't even know how I missed this post, but just have to say what a stunner your baby is! And you, Mrs. Designer of the entire show....I am so impressed. I hope you'll share pics afterwards as I'd love to see them
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