Day 16 - Something difficult in my "lot in life" that I worked on to overcome.
Today's blog challenge was just that...a challenge. I spent all day thinking about it. I wanted to skip it, but then I wouldn't feel right.
I think I have lived a really good life to this point. I have had some minor bumps in the road, but who hasn't. I guess I will talk about how I was an agoraphobic for about a year. When my daughter was about 18 months old, I had a dream that my daughter fell through the railings at a mall close to us and died. I was paralyzed with fear. I remember waking up in a cold sweat thinking that the dream was real. So, I stopped going to the mall...all malls (even though the mall I dreamed about doesn't the type of rails I dreamed about). Then I read one of those email chains about kids being taken out of baskets at Walmart and the people were shaving their heads to sneak them out (where was snoops.com back then...ahh). So, uh yeah, I stopped going to Walmart or really anyplace that had baskets. I then became extremely paranoid that my kid was going to be abducted anywhere I went, so I stopped going places. I went to the grocery store when my husband could watch the baby and I could only be gone for about 20 minutes at a time because I would have panic attacks. I do not really remember how I snapped out of it, but I knew it was gradual. I think it is when I would take her to gymnastics and other "safe" places. I knew that I couldn't live my life in fear anymore, because I wasn't living.
I did a lot of praying and a lot of baby steps, but she is very active outside of the house now. She is also very well educated on personal safety. We go to the mall all the time now (she is a 13 year old girl). I still walk closest to the glass barrier separating her and falling two or three stories. I don't want to tempt fate... :)
I am glad I got this written. I started it 5 or 6 times. There are other things I want to blog about, but they will come in their own time.
See more at Story of my life.